Thursday, June 26, 2014

The thing about chapters

is that in order to start a new one, I must officially close the last.

For 34 months, SBCA was my personal, pseudo Middle Earth; the English Area was my Fellowship, all fourteen of them.

SBCA taught me to accept hugs. Begrudgingly at first. Soon enough, I got the hang of it. More importantly, the place and its people taught me how to give hugs no matter how stiff my hugs can be. 

I learned how to say "I love you" because you need to tell them you love them, because they need to know, because you don't have to like them to love them.

Does it suck to not be there anymore? Yes. Terribly. I miss the place, the people. Every single day, but I've left. That's done.

It's moving forward without me. I'm moving forward without it, without them.

I've done this chapter. I embrace a new one.